The Hardest Part Isn't Day 1

Day 2 of my commitment to figuring out my life on the internet, who am I becoming?

Here's what nobody tells you about showing up scared - Day 1 feels brave and exciting, like you're some lioness on the savannah. Day 2? Day 2 feels like you're a fraud in pajamas talking to your phone while your cat judges your life choices.

The Humbling Reality of Day 2

Can we talk about the fact that literal 9-year-olds are better at this than me? There are children out there creating viral dances while I'm over here googling "how to not look dead inside on camera." The universe really has a sense of humor.

I know from experience that Days 2 through 5 are the hardest. Day 1 you're running on adrenaline and delusion. By Day 2, reality hits. Your brain starts whispering things like "Who do you think you are?" and "Maybe you should just go back to what you know."

But here's the thing - I'm powering through because I made a commitment. Not to you, but to myself. To show up scared every single day for 30 days and see what happens.

Process Over Validation

This isn't about external validation - it's about internal transformation.

Every day I'm going to talk and write about different things that matter to me - kindness, trauma, showing up when you're terrified, ocean health, animals, nature. Random topics that light me up. Because maybe, just maybe, by following these breadcrumbs of what I actually care about, I'll figure out what my next chapter looks like.

Right now? I have absolutely no idea. And that's terrifying and exciting in equal measure.

Octopus Wisdom for the Soul

Random fact time: Octopuses have three hearts and blue blood. Three hearts! Meanwhile, I'm over here trying to figure out what to do with my one heart that's currently beating out of my chest every time I hit 'post.'

Maybe that's the lesson - octopuses need three hearts to survive in the depths. Maybe we need multiple versions of courage to survive our own depths.

One heart for the courage to start. One heart for the courage to continue. One heart for the courage to become who we're meant to be.

Today's Crumpled Ink Entry

Crumpled Ink Day 2: Today, I choose process over perfection and showing up over hiding out.

Yesterday felt messy and imperfect, not what I planned. But here's the thing about crumpled paper—it's not ruined; it's just textured. It has character. It tells a story.

Today is a new page, but I'm keeping yesterday's wrinkles because they're part of the story now.

The Commitment Continues

So here I am, Day 2, showing up messy, scared, and completely out of my depth. Twenty-eight more days of this, twenty-eight more days of choosing growth over comfort, process over perfection, showing up over hiding out.

If you're in your own Days 2-5 of something scary, we're in this together. The hardest part isn't starting - it's continuing when the novelty wears off and you're left with just... the work.

But maybe that's where the magic happens—in showing up when you don't want to, in making a commitment when it feels impossible.

Even octopuses need three hearts. Give yourself credit for having the courage to use your one.

Day 2, done. See you tomorrow for whatever wisdom or chaos emerges.